In our garden, jackfruit tree growing like an ancient. Granny said it’s was long grown by grandpa long long time ago – long enough till grandpa move on to heaven but this jackfruit tree still standing. This tree seem so alike year by year – no sign of future, no furthermore growing up. It’s really made me feel like every single life own it’s peak of growing.
Also human.
However, before bed – I’ve questioned myself once, twice, trice of when I was 10s, 20s, or even ten years before. Am I ever stop growing up? I think no. Finally, I’ve found myself in different direction, on different stance, from different angles. By the fact – one and only way we can stop growing up – it’s the day we’re already gone for god, gone for good.
Sometime, someday, I used to believe that my logic and reasons once advance enough for its time and place – space and moment. By the way as time flys – looking back, made a self-review – something seem so over enormous, something I used to so proud of. It’s just a very simple thing in such life.
I was a fool.
Remind me of first moment I dare cross 5,460m Annapurna Circuit in Nepal. The highest ever peak by first glance is so very tall, tall enough to turned my ambition to earth and though – It’s might not our route. But in the end, evening of same day, I’ve rest about such height. Everyday after, every mountain high enough – we just walked above it. Something higher than my sight – I just spent time run over it.
Just take a little bit step over.
This is life. Today, tonight – I might feel like I am really growing up than yesterday. It’s time to feel it enough, and enough. I feel so worth it. However, if I ever spent longer in next 10 years after – I might regret it and laughing to a child whom still falling to ground.
It’s the same story to this jackfruit I’ve said. It’s seem like nothing change. The fun fact is its till keep on busy surviving. New leaves had grown, old one had gone – everything change.
We’re both keep together growing old.
